I was defeated

I'll write this entry in English. Of course, I don't have anything to write. So I'll write what I come up with.

Many people is bored about it, but I could listen in English more decently. Yesterday, I watched Netflix's video, and I found myself better listener in English. But not perfect. I can't already forgive myself if I can't listen perfectly. So there is no joy about this.

I'm becoming so harsh about my English skill, so I can't enjoy my slight improvement. I see it will be the start of the end of studying English.

I come to the point where I can't quit the relationship with English completely. But I can't reach the point where I can understand English perfectly. It's not fun for me. I'm feeling defeated by English language.